Day 15 of 21 Day Daniel Fast– So today’s meditation comes from the idea of learning how to surrender all. Now, I am not going to claim that I have completely surrendered my all to God because during this Fast, I’ve been feeling like God has been sort of saying to me,
“Give that to me and give that to me and that, that and that…oh and that over there. Give me this stuff that you don’t need because I’ve got something better but YOU have to give me all these things willingly”.
You must be wondering “What in the world is she talking about?” I’m talking about letting go of things that we try to handle on our own based on our level of understanding and allowing God to be the director of these parts of our lives that we have not fully learned to TRUST faithfully with because of deep rooted insecurity, doubt and fear and our need to be “in control” of things we really have no control over. In my personal journey during this Fast, I feel that God has been revealing to me things that I need to curb, things that I need to give up, and things that I need to let go and let God. He has also shown me that there are things that I need to put my 100% trust in Him for, and also in order to continue following Him, there are also things that I can’t take with me along the way because He (Father God) wants to make my Yoke easy and make my burden light, but in many instances I have failed to see it His way because I’ve been doing certain things MY way. Knowing my personality which can be stubborn at times, I can honestly say that God is breaking me down right about now. Just when you think you’re making progress He still shows me areas in my life that need a makeover.
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
What I discovered:
What this whole journey boils down to is that if you seriously and I mean seriously in the honest sense of the Word really want to walk with God, you have to seriously reflect on what it is that is holding you back from Trusting Him Fully and by Fully, I mean COMPLETELY. You want to experience the miracles, the blessings, the amazing things that He has in store for you and all that fun stuff but conveniently we forget that all these things we desire always come with a certain prerequisites that are needed to be satisfied in order to achieve what we seek which is letting Go of what we have in our hands and Letting GOD take our hands. This decisive action is not a walk in the park everybody, and this isn’t a “I want to believe” decision either because it’s a Trust issue here. You have to trust God Completely and not merely “want to believe” in Him when you clearly struggle with areas of doubt here and there. You will not be able to satisfy the call to follow JESUS if you cannot accept that you have to get rid of a lot of junk that is holding you back from doing so, namely DOUBT. Admit to it and then get rid of it. Easier said than done but that is what we all have to do if we want to Follow with an unwavering heart.
What I learned from meditating on the Word for the past few days is that Complete Trust takes a measure of Great Faith and I know my measure is not there yet. However, despite that, I want to pursue it anyway with Fear and Trembling *gulp*.
Let’s look at the story of the Rich Boy who claimed he wanted to follow Jesus In Mark 10. Jesus had some stipulations in order for this naive kid to follow HIM.
17As Jesus started on his way, a man ran up to him and fell on his knees before him. “Good teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” 18 “Why do you call me good?” Jesus answered. “No one is good—except God alone. 19 You know the commandments: ‘You shall not murder, you shall not commit adultery, you shall not steal, you shall not give false testimony, you shall not defraud, honor your father and mother.’[d]” 20 “Teacher,” he declared, “all these I have kept since I was a boy.” 21 Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.” 22 At this the man’s face fell. He went away sad, because he had great wealth. 23 Jesus looked around and said to his disciples, “How hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God!”
(1) It was about a young man who had great wealth that he had inherited from his family who honestly wanted to “follow” Jesus.
(2) Jesus gave the young man some ground rules (stipulations) in order to satisfy his request to follow Him.
(3) The prerequisite was too much for the boy to let go despite his earnest desire to follow the “great Rabbi”.
(4) Jesus was able to discern what the young fella lacked in order to follow Him and tested his character with a word of instruction in verse 21.
(5) The young man was distraught that Jesus was able to expose his weakness, which was the very thing holding him back from “LETTING GO and LETTING GOD”.
After reading this story, I thanked God for the revelation and the slap of truth that He had unveiled to me about myself. I have had to ask myself “What is holding me back from following Jesus COMPLETELY?”.
Do you have anything that you have not completely surrendered to God about? This question was a painful one for me, but I want to expose the truth of it no matter how agonizing this truth encounter was for me. God is gracious in that He loves people enough to point out what we need to work on in order to satisfy the call to follow him without anything holding us back. This is what I’ll be praying and repenting for in this last week of the Fast.
Consider that when God reveals to you your weakness, it is not intended to put you to shame, but to reveal to you with Love what you need to let Go and give to Him so that He can give you something far better than whatever it is that’s holding you back. LET GO and LET GOD. SURRENDER YOUR ALL TO HIM.
I have two videos to encourage both you and I today, to think about what we have to do to really allow God to rule over our lives. Hope you enjoy the Vids. Be blessed today everyone!
This other video was done in the Year 2009 but the message is so relevant to what I just spoke about. Hear it and think about what is being said so that it resonates with your spirit.
And whoever does not carry their cross and follow me cannot be my disciple.
My sheep listen to my voice; I know them, and they follow me.
Whoever serves me must follow me; and where I am, my servant also will be. My Father will honor the one who serves me.
Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me.
Then Jesus said to his disciples, “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.
Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on his glorious throne, you who have followed me will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel.
[ The Way of the Cross ] Then he called the crowd to him along with his disciples and said: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross and follow me.
Jesus looked at him and loved him. “One thing you lack,” he said. “Go, sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven. Then come, follow me.”
4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.
5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.
[ Dispute Over Jesus’ Testimony ] When Jesus spoke again to the people, he said, “I am the light of the world. Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life.”